Okay so right now two guys like me... my ex, who is a hot blonde, really tall and hilarious, I love being around him, and then this fat mexican guy... he is really sweet to me but i just feel this repulsive kind of feeling when I'm around him and sometimes i wonder if its just his appearance and I'm not really giving him a chance... and then deep down appareance really does matter to me.. I feel awful but it does. so I'm stuck on my attractive ex, we still talk and are friends, hes even told me eh still has feelings for me... my parents wont let us get back together though... so i dont know what to do... thanks.